on turning 30:
my inner battle of my body image:
my husband:
my Little Lady:
my Bug:
my step-daughter and how to teach this - that you can be cute and trendy and still be classy - :
my parents:
a few general truths:
I turn 30 in 2 weeks and 1 day. It sounds like such a grown up age. I always imagined what my life would be like at 30 and I wasn't too far off. A few things aren't exactly as planned but I'm finding myself being more sentimental, more thoughtful, more soaking up the moment. I'm also starting to see a new me emerge at the same time, a me that for the first time in my life is having issues with the way I look. Not to sound vain, but I was always in shape, always had a hair style, always looked pretty good. Now, I found that for the past couple years I've settled with being over-weight, the "mom" pony tail, and yoga pants and t-shirts. That is soon to change, I want to look in the mirror and like what I see, and not just for me. How good of a mom can I be if I'm not satisfied with the complete me? I'm also finding myself not taking shit from people. Whether it be someone close that may not even realize that they have upset me or the rude guy that mean mugs me for nursing even when I have my hooter hider on to the snooty moms at the park. I don't back down as easily and I'm finding I like that part of the new me too. I'm not scared to turn 30 and I'm no where close to having a crisis about it. What I am, is excited for whats to come and what the next 30 have carved out for me...I spent the first 30 growing up myself, now I get to spend the next 30 raising these beautiful girls and maybe the 30 after that relaxing....
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